Health: sleeping without a pillow

I've tried it. It's pretty good. As such I don't like indoor living, especially alone without gfs and in a third world dump. But yeah I try to sleep on my stomach and without a pillow as much as possible. Since Obama became president I wake up tired and exhausted anyway but that's not the only factor. My parents are as hopeless, musigynostic and retarded as Obama on many issues. And since I have no right I'm just watching them own me and expect me to kiss their dirty behinds whether I like it or not. They don't even get along. Their hatred and disdain of me Unites them. They talk badly of me behind my back. I've been over hearing it for 8 years now. :'(

Why India should be downgraded and treated with extreme caution

I'm living in a supposedly posh area and all day I hear brown guys walk by and piss in the back alleys my temporary apartment which my mom rented out in an area I warned against Defence Colony based on bad reviews about high crime rate there. Having Indian parents who are tea addicts and racially inferior to you and otherwise morally and intellectually inferior is a nightmare. I pray a lot. Something I haven't done this much before.

I hope to be free financially and live away from her and him and this country ASAP.


Living with your mom sucks. Especially a mom like this who hates girls and doesn't respect sex outside a Hindu marriage, which terrifies me because I'm not really a Hindu and against Many things in Hindu and Indian culture. 

One of several uncharacteristic mistakes I made in the last 6 months

I don't usually do crazy shit like this but I wasn't taking things seriously. I told my useless mutt of a cousin sister jokingly on fb messages that i want to eat her sister in law's cunt. I actually don't now after looking at what a brown guy she's married to in spite of being fair skinned herself but yeah after I said that my life has been going to hell. I think my cousin is into Sikhism where they worship Allah and Hindu gods. Something like that. Anyway, you cannot joke with Indians and get away with it.


In fact you can't get away with anything with Indians. They will turn everything against you as much as they can. Tired, to be continued. I might even edit this post and add more later.

I'm so upset about inclusion of shitskins in the workforce in the west

They don't deserve to be around white people and especially white women. I do. 

I've been living dangerously. Not getting energy from coworkers especially females by not going to work. But can you blame me? I couldn't have worked in the third world nation, UAE, my shitskinned parents, well my mom is fair but a mix of Druid and Arian, were expecting me to live in and work in. My father had me enslaved, made me work and didn't pay me or respect me or give me any human rights, including right to gfs And pre marital sex. Bastard is a brown man who should be hung for the hate he harbors for me and his crimes against me since decades ago. 

Indians (from India) friggin suck

They're brown, they stink like shit, they're rude to whites, they rape white women, they prefer Arabs and Muslims to white people, who they hate and have been attacking, hating and killing since colonial days.

Indians shouldn't get citizenship in the west except me. The others should be thrown out. So should niggers and Muslims. Or just exterminated.

No one should have cousins like this

Who constantly curse me. Referring to those who are my cousins on paper like through my biological parents not in a general evolutionary sense.

Here they are the freaks. But if I name them I risk getting this blog viewed by them when they search for themselves.

I promised not to let myself get bullied by losers who still live with or nearby their parents after getting married and into their thirties. And worst of all who treated me like shit. Like my biological parents who also treated me like shit. 

I'm in absolute shock today

Good things

I was alone at home. If I'd had a normal life with parents who were kind and decent and let me have basic rights, I would have turned out even better.

Bad

Dubai gov't has asked my father to ask me to take down anti Islamic videos I posted on YouTube. My mom is forcing me to take them down. I don't want to and am upset they saw it

I just realized almost all my relatives helped ruin my life and regret telling them the good things that happened to me. They're so mean and expect people to go without sex. It's criminal

I feel extremely guilty for not flirting back with some girls who were good to me, but I was given an imprisoned and abusive upbringing by my sex and white and girl hating sick father and misogynist mother.

Sigh